celticfreedom

Hello world! :-) its Friday, yippppeeeee, i get to rest for a while now, oh, sleep, walking around in my socks, eating cake, ice cream, yummy.
Got Ben and Gerri's double chocolate fudge ice cream last week for the first time that was very nice.
So going out to the pub in about 30 minutes with my two best friends.
Work is going well, I'm working so hard and my bosses are really happy with me, I'm learning the steel business really quickly and I'm getting a company jeep after Christmas.
Got my driving license and getting my car loan on Monday, I'm getting a very shiny 2001 ford fiesta, 5 doors, all electrics, CD player, sun roof, and its minty and black :-)

im taking some advice.
i met up with a friend, shes very cute and after a few drinks, we ended up kissing, it was amazing, she was so beautiful, such a soft and amazing kisser, the whole experience was really beautiful and good.
But now, the girl is totally ingoring me, i dont know why? and now i think iv lost her as a friend too?
A beautiful kiss and i loose a great friend.
I guess its my loss, but thats life i guess, a list of losses,
or maybe im wrong.
hopefully im wrong.......

OTHER NEWS:
work is going well, im getting better and faster all the time, and im getting on with everyone in my company. Im getting a raise next month for mm good work and im also getting my driving license in the post this week. So, good health, good job, all i need now is some good life goals, something to make as a target for all my work. Below is a start, ok things i want to do.
1 Buy a Car
2 Pay off my credit cards
3 Get my own flat
4 Get a girlfriend
5 Write my book, a good idea, just not realised yet :-)

i thinks that for now., i know im missing some biggies, like a house, but a house in ireland starts at 350000 euros....yikes

I think its a good idea if i use my journel to map out my progress in my new job. I sometimes find it so hard to see the big picture and to understand my goals.
Today was monday and after a lovely relaxing weekend, i was back in the office, all stressed out as always, too much work, not enough hours, I work so hard there, every second i have but theres never enought time to do everyhting asked of me. My boss shouted at me over the phone today, apparently i designed something in the wrong way and i got killed, "how am i meant to learn if no one teached or shows me"???? i just cant let myself get upset, its good starting job and its design, but god its hard and stressed?? who knows how it will turn out, but i always should remember whats emportant, my family, my health and my friends, jobs come and go.
Im also secrelt teaching myself a high tech engineering program that will le me do many more interesting design jobs in the future, plus its a backup if my boss, ever gives me the boot, it probably wont happen but im always wondering if tis coming around the corner ?? jesu im a nervies person, i so need to grow up and become stronger against people !

just started a new job, very lucky to get this job, please god, ill work hard enought to keep it and make them and my family proud?
i really hope that.

as i go to sleep tonight, my life is full of love and hope, all i ask is that i wake up with the same feeling.

COLLAGE REULTS TODAY: + M1 (second highest grade in 32 students) i can do my masters now at any time! :-) i want to thank my family, especially my dad, and my amaxing and loving friends were making my life so happy, thank you all. i will always do everyhting in my power to protect and love those who love me.

God Bless world and goodnight !

hay world, miss me? :-)
ok,im having my design exabition a the moment, thats going great, was contacted my a magor company about work? so wish me good luck, had a great few days, the weather is brilliant, i have a kick ass tan and my friends all came over and had a barbeuq at my house, last night, i was the chef and the food was a big hit. :-)
after cooking i was a little stressed, one of my female frends told me to take off my top and she did a full back massache, when i was on the grass, shes amazing, beaitufl and smart and she was macaching nearlly every mucsle in my body, i dont know, that was just, WOWWWWWW :-) :-) so my results out next thurdsay, so wish me well.
with a little luck, im going to do alright ? i hope and pray.
night world.

My poor wee body, every muscle is groaning after today, it was officially the last day of my collage life and the external examiners, 1 from Northern Ireland and 1 from Finland were in all day marking our final projects. They always call in about 7 people at the end of the day to explain specifics about their products. So the day went on, we all played board games and the lecturers kept coming in and playing with us, it was great fun, we had a really good laugh with one of our lectures, hes very camp and we kept talking about the design of shavers, he said that he could never shave special areas, we all feel on the ground laughing, it was juts too funny! So at the end of the day, big surprise they called me in, i went as white as a ghost, i was so scared they'd destroy me, but i was totally wrong, they let me explain what i loved about my design and what was really challenging, i did really well with them and i told them, it could be my last product ever, maybe? And i juts had great fun with my imagination, they really loved all my energy. so thats that ! i find out my results in two weeks, i think i might do well, but im not guessing ??? ill leave that up to faith! so now, rest, and sleep, before i go sleep, i want to thank everyone for all the help the have given me this year and special thanks go out to my special and very beautiful friend T !
night world !

im just listening to the final European piano contest in Dublin tonight, its just fantastic, the best European pianists playing their hearts out, wow ! :-)
I had a great day, got all my collage stuff finished, my dad got a new computer today and he had to install a new modem, he fouled it up so like a digital super man- i flew in :-)
Got that fixed and got the net working also, he's chuffed, his new toy :-)
have some spare time this weekend, so im doing some wood work, i promised a old friend id make her something special and i want to keep that promise.
so farewell world for now, keep loving me because im loving you ! :-)

ok life is good, but i juts cant stop myself thinking about the future ?
i have so many questions and few answers ?
all i can do is wait, play it out i guess and hope for the best, wish me luck world !

im almost done! another week and a half, have to stick around for the external exmainer, then going to galway to see my family, they have a money present for me, ahhh they know what i want :-) , then im going to travel through eruope for a week or two, then jobs, this company in india still wants me but there so far away, id love to stay in europe.

i wish this day was a little better, i have some much work to do but my body is just exausted,4 years of collage, 4 years of working so i could be one of the best and with almost no thanks, no recognition and my body and mind are just exausted.
Im not going to complain too much, i know its just the tiredness talking :-(

Woke up at 9 this morning exactly, very weird, the sun is out and im finishing my wood model today, its a lot of work but i think it will look really good.
Going to have a nice pasta dinner and then back out and finish this model.
That's it, ill update later this evening on all the excitement :-)

I sometimes ask myself why i writhe here and more often than not, the answer that comes back, is that it allows me to write down my thoughts directly and work them out like some maths equation and this makes sense to me.
Im starting to think about my life, as my collage life closes, a new and unknown world is opening up before me. Im finding myself unable to relax and enjoy the company of my best friends because i knew i may never see them again, all i can do is live on hope, hope that my life will follow a happy and worth while path, i guess that's all anyone can hope for.

Capturing all my best memories.
Im working very hard these days in collage, from 9 till 9 but my work is brilliant; im really done myself proud and my lecturers are going to be so proud of me. I have really done well and feel very good.
Iv noticed that these days when my friends all go out and lay in the grass and chat and laugh, that im looking at them and trying to remember all these amazing people.
I hope when im finished collage, that i wont loose them all to the future.
i feel like im at peace with the world, moving at its speed and enjoying my friends ever second of the day, im really lucky !

Today was a very good day, the weather was lovely and me and my dad went over to a neighbours and had tea in the garden, what a splendid day, i decided to relax today and work my heart out for the week, oh my uncle visited yesterday and i showed him my wood model with all the moving mechanics, he's a very intelligent man and he was very impressed (a actual physiatrist ;-))
On the job search, i just got a email from a Italian design company, telling me that their interest in hiring me for some contract work straight away in Italy, so if that worked out i could be going to Italy to work after collage, id love that! :-) Hopefully, iv learnt though to keep positive and i know i with my qualifications ill get a good job :-) :-)
So wish me well world!

new technology for a brighter future? :-)
my dad just bought me a new 8 gig Zen mp3 player, it holds 4000 songs and iv just finished filling it;-) benafits of collage, lots of free stuff ;-)
So im really happy and surprised. it shows videos as well, so i can watch all my comedias on the bus, train, plane everyhting.
Ok ok, i gotta do it. yipppppeeeee :-)
otherwise today, was so tired after collage that i feel asleep at 6 and juts woke up at 10, but i needed it and feel great now, with my new little toy :-) :-) im such a kid :-)
night world!

Ok, today was a mix of many things, i think iv been thinking about all of important stuff, and i found myself one minute laughing with my friends and then again quiet.
I think maybe im tired emotionally a bit, my estranged mom just showed up out of nowhere! She asked if i wanted to go for an evening lunch together, i had to say yes, my dad would have killed me if i disrespected her. So we went out for about two hours, both of us kept the conversation light, the weird thing is she kept looking at me and smiling, i know she loves me, she really does, and i don't hate her, i juts have to be careful around her! That played on my mind today; i could hardly sleep last night but these things always pass-over, thankfully.
Otherwise im ok, getting a bit tired of collage work, but apparently doing a great job, everyone keeps saying they cant wait to see my final presentations, so i must be doing something right? I hope ;-)
Well, that's that, a interesting day, but i will survive and march on...... :-)
night world!...... night T ! xx

i have to work, i have lots of pieces of work but i need to sow them all together, i have a husiness report for tuesday and lets just say, it aint fun! :-( weather is kinda crap, otherwise, work work work.....

i got to talk to my friend t, its a good day after that! :-)

its saturday and a littel cold and overcast :-(
and i just finished watching the DVD documentry SUPERSIZE ME, oh my god, im never eating in McDonalds, again!
war criminals shouldnt be made to eat that crap!
otherwise, now im going to make myself some dinner, salads here i come..........